aftermath

by right i shld be happily packing my luggage now waiting to leave for china later at 5am .. but i m just not in the mood to do so.. coz i feel like i m dragging myself to go ... wat is the big deal of packing my luggage last minute? wat is the problem of me myself packing luggage myself? is nt as if this is the first time i gg overseas! i really dun understand wat my eldest wants .. all she wants is to gain control over everything when she is back in the house... i dun see the benefits of doing so.. i only know that i m superly angry n i shouted till i have no voice now.. no as if i like shouting back but the reasons she gave is extremely ridculous!

after all the shouting i feel like crying coz they dun understand me... but no use... they wont understand... this house to me seems to drift v far from me... i really wish i wasnt in the house now n ever...