tired and sad...
has been a long while since i last blogged... no time to blog..busy like mad...
my 21st bday has passed... 10 days ago... 11 days ago, i had a wonderful party... though i was running abt, i enjoyed seeing my old frens back... together chatting or playing mj... well, then all the photos taking... cool... is also a day where u see how pple has changed over the time... changes take place so fast...
21 le... wat can i say? old..adult... freedom? hm... i dun need that...i have freedom long ago ..haha.. can i nt get the key? so that i can still be showered with love and concern?... haiz... i m nt sure myself either...
i had alot of presents! 4 bags, one wallet, 2 pouches, watches, accessories and hongbaos! of course, 7 dwarfs and flowers ! haha... dun have to buy bags anymore..:)
just after the party ended, i rushed back to pgp to do design...sad rite? sch work is stressing me out...
is jer's and er jie's bday today!! happy birthday to both of them! i havent been seeing my 2nd sis long time liao..dunno how is she... hope she is as happy as ever:) jer, 21 le! welcome to the adult world!... so wat is the big deal that we are 21 now? life still goes on and more tough! nv much will change for the 4 of us i guess...:) just hope clare and cand can find their parnters soon too!
Now i m in studio blogging while listening to my new mp3 player..creative zen nano plus... ... i m alittle upset... it seems like i have distanced away from the studio and also the studiomates... sometimes i cant help having this feeling tat they dun like me and this is true... i dun expect them to like me but that the gap between us is larger now... sometimes i feel so helpless... competition goes on high, and i dun where i stand... is how scary tat makes me feels insecure... we werent that close frens anymore.... me leading my own life in studio while the rest in a grp... i feel outcased... but i know the reason y... is okie i guess.... i just hope this feeling wouldnt affect my passion and shake me off archit anytime... coz i feel superly unsafe and stressed here.. right here at this seat of mine... tell u sth. i dun have privacy here... pple here has no manners... use my computer without perimission, chatting on msn on my behalf and dunno wat they type, take my lib book without asking as well.... i just dun understand... is nt tat i dun lend them, i will if they ask me for perimssion! ... i scolded but to no avail... y? nt fierce enough? i just dun understand... i hate pple with no manners that is...
i just hope everything in archit ends off fast and well for me.... i hate to say but i hate sch...
