shld i give it up or not?

sch has started. now we are into the 3rd week where tutorials will be starting too...
i seriously dun like school...i dun like the stress...it hasnt been like this last few sem...i can see the competition and feels that this time round is really competitive... i see the blood gushing through my veins...rushing for submission, getting myself out of bed early in the morning to attend dreadful lectures... headaches come as quickly as it go...as often as i breathe... last few nights headache struck me off the bed early...nevertheless, the pain continued till the morning...

give me a break pls... i dun understand wat the tutor wants, i dun understand wat the lectures are, i dun understand how to do the assignments, and i dislike competition...
this time round, the design is 12mc...if design grade is A, the cap will be pull up. but if it remains as a B, the cap will go down... so wat shld i do? strike for the highest? or remain as i m now and be contented?

i always tot design shld be sth fun and enjoyable...but it nv turns out to be one. i m disappointed.
shld i just finished it in 3 years and do sth lower in profession? will i be happier then?

my temper these few days are getting horrible... got irritated v easily...sorry if i have hurt u...
can the time pass quickly? i dun want to attend design studios anymore.... i dun like the pace the competition the stress ... ... i hate to say but i have to say that i hate sch now...

another year has come...

it has been a month since i last blogged...hm...used to blog more often in the past but now i dun coz less sad things happened to me... ...

2005 has passed by so quickly..i m nt really ready for 2006...
i rem a year ago, rp mates hada new year resolutions for 05...now looking back, realised didnt really fufilled most of them exp one...found the one...
05...started off with wannee asking me to join the foc05 oc...i didnt really give a thought of joinin foc then coz i was afraid i will be too busy but i did after much persuations. sch goes on as usual with the hectic schedule n heavy work loads...i rem the design theme was then the triangular plot of land at little india...back then dennis n i went to little india a zillions times for site visits..we had much fun staying overnite in studios n working n chatting through the nites with the old studio 4 mates... then came exams...then results... as usual, i failed to improve my grades... i was utterly disappointed with myself... i finally resigned to my fate that i m just stupid... i cried for 2 days before i embarked my life with csc again...during the semster, i was detached from csc but i was glad that i managed to bridge the bond back during the holidays... the happiest times i ever had was with csc...n tat was the only time i enjoyed myself, i see myself being useful again...the semster had been dark for me... thinking back, i was relieved tat i joined the foc oc...i made many new frens besides with the usual diathesi...although everyday was packed with meetings n trails i wasnt nv tired to miss out any fun, went for trails to help out too. then the camp came along, the hardwork was paid off i must said...coz i truthfully enjoyed myself to the max...i still rem being the red chongsan girl...haha, renhong n i scare michelle to the max...n nt to forget zippy..haha...but well, this is the first time i took up the role as a girl in red chongsan coz i was too afraid to wear the chongsan n be a ghost to scare others when i m scare too! watsmore, we improved the scaryness at my station coz the first one wasnt scary enough so i volunteered to be a ghost...fred! u must thanks me! haha... well, all in all, i made many many new frens... n also many memories were created then...be it happy or sad...

things happened so fast that u didnt realised that it had been 6 months... the first time when i was so confused...the first time i felt i was a fool a toy..the 1st time i felt being treasured. those times were sad but i did survived n now i m a happy girl again... i just wanna said memories were always be there...but let it be a happy one n one that we can laugh it off...

05...last year had been an eventful year for me i was too tired...i hope 06 will be less eventful but happier with rpmates, with studiomates, with csc frens as well as with dar...
6 months ago, i made this choice. 6 months or even 60 years later, i nv regret making this choice... coz i m fortunate to find the one... but have i failed to be a nice girl? sorry tat i have been such a one... ...