just me??

already my 6th week in shanghai le...been to quite many places... i do miss singapore some time tot:)

quick updates to places i have been to...

zhejiang sept30th - a day trip to watch a strange phenomenon where the river flows against its own current due to the change in tide hence causing the sea water current to wash up the river mouth...tot was only a day trip but it was a tiring one because we got to squeeze the bus like pancakes n the bus journey was super rocky..btw, zhejiang is at the outskirts of shanghai in another province where u see the truly china life...

me caught in action while watching the change in current... (photo taken up jh)

guys acting cool... girls watching meteor??

a cute boy we meet on the bus..

nanjing 05-07 oct - to the west of shanghai;went to visit brandon, jiahui n boyan..this city is small as compared to shanghai but it is one of the biggest small cities besides shanghai n beijing le..nth much to do besides the Sunzhongsan mountain that we climbed..wah, i havent exercised for v long n this climb really make me feel super unhealthy n tiring..btw, i skipped breakfast in the day so halfway during the climb i got to take in mentos to replenish my sugar level lor...if nt i will roll down the hill!

the shanghai pple in dongnai university

right pic - all the guys without me:(

is me!! sorry i wearing weird attire coz i have limited clothings!!

this is nanjing!! see how high i climb??

yeah!! first blog in shanghai!

yeah! finally i can blog le!! okie this is already my 3 weeks into shanghai le... quick update fr the past few weeks ba :)

first week went hopping ard the city looking for houses to rent...rem was a super tiring day because we went to see abt 10 over houses in a day...finally we decided on a penthouse near to our sch!! although rent was a bit high but nt bad because it was quite worth it..n i have my own room!!

my lovely pinky bed!!thick quilt with my pooh bear...

our living room ...

we also went to the shanghai bund...with all the colonel buildings n orangy lighting...beautiful... ...it was super crowd even on a normal day. we even tried the bin tan hu lu...hmrr...well, weird taste...sweet n sour...the fruit was sour but it was coated with a thick layer of sweet honey...luckily i only ate one! lets see them eating!

qibao trying v hard to swollen his second n last piece!

weilun n his disgusted look...

the nonchalant face of jiehao's...

on their national day which was on the 1st oct..we went to shanghai bund again:) wah this time the highway was blocked n pple were all walking on it....believe me, china has nth but alot alot alot of pple!! well, although there wasnt anything specially going on at the bund, we went there to feel the crowd n the atmosphere... here are some pics we had while having fun!

qibao n me taking against the wonderful trusses above us!! we didnt forget we are archit students:)haha! my bunny ears n jiehao's evil ears!! cutie??

me, colin, qibao, huijing n weilun..jiehao taking photo... the tower behind us is the famous cctv tower:)

sing army vs china army.... spot the row of miliary guards at the back...

me n my piggy face!!!cute cute??? hahah!

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A pic taken from pixelgirl website......

when i saw this pic, i felt peaceful n calm... but my temper recently isnt as calm as it suppose to be....

i knew i had created alot of nusiance recently because i flared up more often than before and i threw my temper at anyone... i know very well that i had changed...and is a bad change... throwing temper anywhere and anyhow... and i m well aware by it... people gave me the shocking look when they saw the change... i know i know... but i dun wat is the cause... i kept questioning myself but i still cant find the answer... i m lost...

tried talking to u abt it but u didnt provide me an answer. instead each time u just say try to keep the temper down... i am also aware of this need but i m trying to ask if u know y i have changed but u didnt even to make an attempt... coz i tot u know my best... well, guess i m wrong...

dunno y, felt like writting an entry today... u are busy playing mj after ur ktv... ya i know u invited me along but i just dun wish to go out coz of my face. yet u dun understand... been thinking abt our relationship for the past few days... as u had said ystd, it had changed... it seems like u are way too busy for me... i know u have done many things for me but now is lesser... i m not trying to count in terms of materialistic stuff but i know the care n concern is definitely lesser... maybe because i m the cause of it... didnt u realise both of us did nth for each other this 2nd aniversary? wondering if this is an indication of sth? i wondered...

y pple have nice and happy pics on their blogs but i dun??

is love loving?

was reading a fren's blog...read the poem...some feelings after reading...

wat is love?
wat is love if one can never find true love afterall?
is love just between 2 people?
or is love about everyone ard u?
or is love just an illusion in ur own mind?

have i found or have i not? who can answer me? neither u nor me...

so wat if u are a s- - - - r?

had a bad day at chomp chomp today...was happily eating with rp after ktv..went chomp chomp to have our dinner... waited so long and finally we got ourselves 2 tables at the benches outside...thought we could enjoy our food but these 2 bimboos stood besides us to wait for us to get off...isnt it obvious that we have just started our dinner? they are just stupid to wait for our tables...so they waited for only about 10 minutes..then this stupid woman took out a cigarette...so wat if this is a smoking area? we non-smokers cant sit down to eat here meh?? i was watching her smoke at the other table...the very moment she blew the smoke towards my rp tables i feel like slapping her. IS this the right way to chase pple out?? so wat if u are a smoker? i knew she was waiting for seats but i refused to let my seat to her.. so i only got off my table when i saw another old lady waiting besides me... i walked over to rp's table and blocked that stupid woman from smoking towards the table of food. we chatted while the food was being served one by one.. eating at chomp chomp u ought to wait for the food la..coz the food takes a long time to arrive wat.. i knew she got irritated waiting but too bad, we HAVE NOT finished our food. no way she can chase us off... she took out yet the second cigarette..and again blew the smoke across us...zip zip tired blocking the smoke but still the smell was too strong... wat kind of attitude is this ?? so wat if u are wearing a tube and smoking? this is not an entitlement for u to get seats lor!!!

finally when we got off the table, i cursed her!! dun ask me wat i cursed but believe me, i can make horrible curse!!

i wanna say that i m utterly disappointed in the attitude of singaporeans' today... never have i see such rude attitude before...watsmore she is in her thirties...where has all the manners gone to?????????????

now i am coughing coz of her stupid smoke...

i m not critising all smokers. just that this stupid woman ought to be cursed!!!!!

another nonchalant day

hey has been long since i last blog... didnt get use to blogging nowadays...has been busy with archit...well guess i m also nt use to blogging my feelings online...

was looking thru my frens blogs...wanna to catch up with them since i have nt been contacting them since the sem starts...feel bad...realise alot of things happen to my frens but i just knew it...feel real bad...

saw my frens who are in exchange now...they have been posting nice photos..i kept wondering what will happen to me if i was in their shoes? were i be as happy as them? well, actually i see that i will cry many times there if i m gg exchange alone...haha..coz i m scared of loneliness?haha..well i m afraid i cant adapt to the culture and people there... well, but is really a nice place to travel to...such as australia and texas...

back in sch...p1 and tropcial workshop are over..sem starts fast and now is the mid sem break...
well, P1 was fun..though i have to work with totally new faces in the studio..didnt know them at all but i was the one who initiated this group..haha and the funniest thing is that their names all have the "jie" in it.. and of coz i m excluded!haiz...well, though sometimes i got irritated by our nonchalant leader who doesnt smile more than twice a day, i still have great fun with them:) definitely i learnt alot from this leader...now i know the difference between a "A" student and a "B" student like me...haha..well, does it matter now? now, results is nt wat i m concern of..like wat gareth says, enjoying what i m doing is more important than forcing me to do things tat i dun enjoy...true though...

mid term break means working on projects' time...is tue today, and i have another project meeting later...sian...when can i go out and play? i miss the sun and the great times i had have during the holidays! esp the camp...well, most importantly i enjoyed being with my group qetest v much...but now seems like we arent tat close anymore coz everyone is so busy!! haiz..hopefully many can turn out on 30th sat...:)

seeing many nice photos in my frens' blogs...i feel like uploading photos tat i took during the holidays too! ...pardon me for doing so late ...hehe...

aftermath

by right i shld be happily packing my luggage now waiting to leave for china later at 5am .. but i m just not in the mood to do so.. coz i feel like i m dragging myself to go ... wat is the big deal of packing my luggage last minute? wat is the problem of me myself packing luggage myself? is nt as if this is the first time i gg overseas! i really dun understand wat my eldest wants .. all she wants is to gain control over everything when she is back in the house... i dun see the benefits of doing so.. i only know that i m superly angry n i shouted till i have no voice now.. no as if i like shouting back but the reasons she gave is extremely ridculous!

after all the shouting i feel like crying coz they dun understand me... but no use... they wont understand... this house to me seems to drift v far from me... i really wish i wasnt in the house now n ever...